Maybe this year sucked, but I survived
Maybe your year was like mine, full of doubt, surprises, and uncertainty.
Maybe you lost sight of who you used to be while chasing a version of yourself who now lives in the shadows of your life, and that’s totally okay. Maybe we all thought life owed us more than we bargained for, and we finally met our match. Maybe we prayed big prayers and sat in the middle of our season of change and growth.
Nevertheless, even if this year sucked — yes, I said it, sucked — at least we: kept our kids alive, kept our priorities somewhat straight, and most of all… we survived.
This year raked me over the coals. I won battles in silence that made me question who I was and where I was going. This year was lonely — not because I wasn’t surrounded by love, but because I had to fight my own battles and conquer my own demons. No one talks about the strength it takes to mother in the midst of your trials. No one talks about the days you look in the mirror and see a stranger but still find a way to smile and love yourself one more time so your child doesn’t see the broken pieces of you being held together with tape.
Life has a way of humbling us when it hurts the most. It reminds us that the person we thought we were was just a fraction of who we’re becoming. We are so much greater than we ever imagined, if we’re willing to look within.
This year forced me to dissect the parts of myself that were yearning for more, parts that needed more than I was giving them. I was disillusioned by my own reality, wandering through a twilight zone, hoping I’d recognize my old self along the way. But the truth is… I’m not supposed to find my old self on this journey. I’m meant to honor who she was, thank her for how she carried me, and gently release her so I can welcome the woman I am becoming — the woman I was meant to be all along.
No matter how hard this year was for you, don’t forget: you made it through. January 1st is a beautiful invitation to reset, but so is every single day.
And don’t forget to thank this year, even if it sucked because sometimes loss makes room for us to finally recognize our wins. May this upcoming year and beyond bring many blessings your way.
Blessings and safety for an incredible year ahead.
With love always,
Happy New Year & New You,
Amber
